The past two years, starting in Advent, I've really tried to harness peace in my life. If "harness" can be used to describe such a word. I don't know if I've been successful. I feel more peace, and I think that that's come about by outside forces shifting and settling, things falling into place. So I can't really give myself credit for that. This year, the word that comes, un-summoned, is rest. I want so much to rest. Rest in my body, rest in my soul, rest in Jesus. I miss Jesus.
So I want to seek spiritual direction. I'm just awful at self-motivation. Having a person to recommend disciplines to me and to check in with me now and again (and pray for me!) is just the remedy. I'm unsure about how to go about finding one. The priests I've been to in confession don't seem eager to dole out a lot of advice and/or are questionable on matters of doctrine and practice. There should be a spiritual direction directory somewhere around here!
I also want to seek out an acupuncturist! It's been recommended to me by several people and the almighty internet, and I think some damage control in order to preemptively combat the physical pain and stress caused by special needs parenting is smart.
The only real resolutions I've made are small and do-able:
- write one poem
- write one short story
- publish one piece
Because I miss writing. I'm happy with my creative outlets of blogging and photography. I wish I had more time in which to expand on these hobbies, or maybe just time to indulge in them without feeling panicked and rushed and distracted. But alas, this is not my season.
I'm also sorely lacking in the reading department. It's shameful! I must read Kristin Lavransdatter because I haven't, and that is a crime against nature. If I can just accomplish that, along with whatever reading a spiritual director will assign, I'll feel satisfied.
So that's me in 2016. Do you set resolutions or briefly entertain the idea of setting them? How do you go about finding a spiritual director ('cause it's entirely new territory to me)?